Confusion.

Earlier tonight, my little brother was carrying around a bag of balloons (which were not inflated). He spilled them all over. Naturally, I went to him and said, "Do you want me to help you pick them up?" He replied, "No! Get away from me!"
I began to wonder, is that what we (I) do to God so often? We start to fall apart, and He races to us saying, "Do you want me to help you pick the pieces back up?" But no. We don't want His help. We think we're okay with Him, but we push Him away like that.
Then I started to wonder a bus load of other things. Like: I know NOBODY IS perfect and we all make mistakes, but is it possible for a genuine Christian to sin deliberately?...and you know that you should stop, but you don't? Is that the proof of an unbeliever? Or is it just your flesh and Satan controlling you, since you gave him ground to walk on? I'm confused about this. Does it take some people longer to repent from certain sins after they're saved? Or what about a sin that is started AFTER someone has a salvation experience? What if they don't realize that it's wrong? Does that show that they're walking in darkness? "If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth." (1 John 1:6) I'm just confused. I have all these questions that keep popping up in my head, but I can't think of all of them right now.
If someone has some answers for me, PLEASE tell me. You can email me or leave a comment. I'll post more if I think of some more things.

Goodnight.