Rediscover? I think not.

I recently heard a Christian song stating the lyrics, “Help me rediscover You.”
I finally figured it out. I’ve been trying to “rediscover” Jesus. I’ve been thinking that I lost Him somewhere. I made all these commitments to Him in hopes that I could get Him to work in my life again. I thought that I could rediscover Him.
Wow, was I wrong. No wonder I felt so bad every time I discontinued one of my vows. I was right to feel ashamed – I did fail my Jesus. But I didn’t have to rediscover Him.
Why? He has always been right here. He didn’t leave me. He found me once in my life, I didn’t need to find Him, and I especially don’t need to find Him all over again. I have no capability to do so anyway.
I’ve spent the last year or more trying to rediscover Jesus over and over again. That left me high and dry. I’ve come to the realization of some truths though: Jesus doesn’t leave me - I can’t rediscover Him; I can only move forward or move backward in my relationship with Him. If I do the former, I will grow closer to Him day after day, I will experience God piece by piece, and He will use me. If I do the latter, I will be farther from Him each day, I will fall apart, and He will not use me. I will have to come back to Him by repentance, but I cannot come back to Him by rediscovery.
My journey isn’t over yet, and neither is yours. It is not mission complete. We are to fervently run the race of faith each day. We are to keep moving closer to our goal (to be like Jesus). If we screw up, we are to get up, find forgiveness in God, and keep on keepin’ on. It’s not like I’ve already finished discovering God and now I have to discover Him all over again. No!
Everyday, one step closer. (If not, we should get back where we’re supposed to be.) Every moment, a little more of God’s breath in me. It’s a journey with no need to rediscover our Captain. We are God’s adventurers.
At the end of our journey, let us echo the words of Paul: “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” (2 Timothy 4:7)